All I want Eludes Me

Gosh, I can't sleep. This is such a problem for me these days. Everyday all day long all I long for is bed. I could lie down and close my eyes at anytime during the day and sleep. At bed time it just doesn't feel the same. Where is that coziness that is in the bed during the day. I lie down at night and it just doesn't feel as sweet and soft. During the day sirens, helicopters, the radio, it doesn't matter what sounds are about but at night the smallest thing wakes me or irritates me. Sadie has a new game she likes, well actually it is an add on to a game she likes. She loves to jump on the bed. We will be in the living room and she will come up to me, grab my hand, say jump? and start tugging me towards the bedroom, so I put her up on the bed and she jumps and laughs. Now after a few jumps she will say Nap? and lie down with her head on my pillow and I will tuck her in and then she pats Mark's pillow beside her and say This? and I have to lie down beside her and get under the blankets too. My favourite right?? Well, no. As soon as I am in and next to her, thinking that this is indeed my version of heaven (well one version) she gets up and says jump? again and so the cycle continues. There is about 3 seconds of lying down next to her before we are up and jumping again. Oh well. It is all so cute I don't really mind. I really thought I'd sleep easily tonite. If I'd known I was going to have a hard time maybe I would have started drinking white russians at dinner. haha.

Life is Sweet!!

It all just gets better and better.

Back to The Garden

I am officially obsessed with this game and song.
Make sure to turn on your sound.

OK, I just want to apologize. I have felt bad since... I don't want anyone to renounce thier faith. I have had problems with religion but if you don't then great. Ha, it is hard for me to say that, but I want to mean it. Free Will after all. The fact that we have a choice whether to evolve or not, that is what separates us from the animals and plants. They don't need a choice because why would you choose not to evolve?? Well wordy brains and concepts offer alot potential reasons for staying dense. But I love many Christians with all my heart and I feel bad to have potentially offended any of them. Well, if it weren't for the fact that I hooked this blog up to Facebook I wouldn't worry because no one would ever see it. And I love Jesus, but not the religion that His Existence spawned. But again... Which is stronger for me? Freedom of speech and expression or if you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all.
I will just leave you with this link. Enjoy.. it is music. =)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cy6iwP9Ux3A

Let me get this off my chest, really OFF please!!!

Well I went to bed at 9 pm. I have an extreme lack of energy right now. I feel mentally motivated but lack the physical energy and ability to carry on with my plans. It has been an on going issue my whole life. I want to pull through more energy and use it well, but then I find myself back in fronto f this computer cycling between my email, twitter, facebook and etsy. There is nothing so inspiring and frustrating as looking at all the wonderful things on Etsy and being so inspired to create but wasting time instead. OK, so ya, I went to bed at 9 om and I read more Eckhart Tolle. I was enjoying the book but feeling like he was missing something vital. Well then I got to the parts about pain bodies. And I don't want to split hairs with anybody about terminology but just him mentioning the female collective pain body sent a big thank you through my being. My ego and my part of the female pain body doesn't want revenge, only acknowledgement and a renoucement of the current and past popular forms of Christianity. I know!! Why read books like this if I don't want to get over the witch burnings and all the other belittlement of Woman kind?? Well, I just want an acknowledgement of all the shit that has gone down and continues to go down and let's just cut it out. The Inquisition was real, the Holocaust was real, the residental schools were real, we really did lock up Canadians of Japanese decent up at Hastings park. And I am constantly feeling about it. I am mad about it and I want to feel ok to let go of it, but it seems wrong to just let it go when there or so many who would rather act and think that these things don't, didn't matter. That they didn't happen? That they weren't such a big deal, but they are the very things that keep our societies insane. And I am so uneducated about the rest of the world but you know what I mean. It happens, it is happening.No pictures today kids. Peace out.

Happy Solstice!!

Can anyone tell me some traditions that celebrate winter solstace other than Christmas? I wish to be outdoors with many loved ones with lots of food, drink and a big bonfire. Alas I am in my living room a story off the ground, alone with my thoughts as my family sleeps. Well sleep this long night thru, tomorrow we welcome back the Sun.

Gorgeousness Abound!!

I feel blessed to have days where absolutely everything seems beautiful and good. Today was a day like that. We had an early start and went to toddler time at the Firehall Library where the much beloved Susie was performing for the weebs. Then we hurried off to Cafe Artigiano for much needed coffee and lunch where we met our friend Louisa and then we sauntered off toward home in the amazing sunshine. Oh yes, this week, life is beautiful.